September 25, 2009
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Loss.
I don’t think it’s possible to completely put yourself in a position other than the one you are currently in. I guess if you’ve walked through an exact experience then you can truly say, “I know how you feel”.
A couple days ago, friends from medical school lost their 2 year old twin boys. These sweet people tried for years before being able to conceive and deliver a baby. Asa and Elijah were born at 26 weeks gestation. I remember reading their family blog as they made frequent posts about the ups and downs that come with premature births. I thought it was so miraculous when I read that they were taking them home. Two little miracles…
And now they’re gone. Their passing was the result of a freak, bizarre accident that you can’t explain, understand, or make sense of. These parents are forever changed.
As I’ve been mulling over this in the last week, so many things have run through my mind.
First, I can’t begin to imagine the pain. The emptiness. Devastating.
I can, however, imagine the power and grace of my God. I shudder to think of the horrid emotions a parent experiences after such trauma, but I know enough of God’s character to know he’s not afraid of our emotions. He can handle it.
A couple days ago, I was in the car, praying under my breath. Praying for comfort for this family. I felt dissatisfied in my prayer. Comfort is of course relevant but it wasn’t enough. I kept having this sense that something more was needed. Something critical. Then guess Who spoke to my heart?. Sitting here, typing this, tears well up because I am so amazed that I serve a God who actually speaks to me. I’m not worthy in my flesh of that privilege but still, He does.
This I know: When He speaks, it changes things. His voice is that life raft in the middle of the turmoil. And let’s face it, if it’s a really dark time, that’s ALL that gets you through.
So, I began to ask God to not be silent. For this mother, in particular, whose every moment has been 100 % consumed by her children, to hear a voice that gives her a tiny glimmer of hope. Hope in the TRUTH that God has a PURPOSE for her even still. Motherhood is a purpose in and of itself and I think if you don’t see it that way, it’s exhausting and could at times, seem insignificant. However, mothering is not all mothers are about. As long as we have breath, He has a reason for our being. She needs to know this and a person telling her won’t cut it. She needs to hear it from a place of omniscience. Your purpose gets you out of bed. And bless her heart, humanly speaking, that simple task would seem unbearable after such a loss.
So, sometime this weekend, please say a prayer on behalf of this couple. It’s a heavy burden to bear and I hate for anyone to experience such devastation.
Hug your children extra hard tonight. Don’t feel guilty for a good day. Thank Him for it. Rejoice in the fact that He is faithful. That He promises grace. And that He doesn’t break His promises.
Don’t let the small stuff entangle you. Work hard to not let the little things steal even a moment of your life.
Stacey
Comments (10)
A-men. I will pray for this couple. I weep for them and their loss.
wow. my heart truly goes out to this mother…
thanks for what you shared here~ about h.o.p.e. (love that word) God speaking to us (love that too) and having a purpose so beyond merely “us.”
i will stop and pray for this family. even now.
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Thank you so much for your prayers.
Praying for them…Cant even imagine their pain. But God is the ultimate healer, and for this I’m very grateful.
Blessings ~ Robin.
This makes me weep.I can’t imagine what this family is going through.Especially a mother to be so blessed and have it all taken away.Life is so precious.Thanks for sharing and reminding us the real purpose in life.Not letting the small things get in the way of the moments in life is so true.My prayers are with them.Carol
I’m so grieved, my 2 year old twin girls are giggling in the other room and I can’t imagine loosing them. How in the world did this happen? I pray that The Holy Spirit just touches them in a way that they know without a doubt that He cares and holds them in the palm of His hand.
wow so sad! How did it happen? I can’t imagine their pain right now!
My heart hurts…I can’t comprehend the overwhelming pain and devastating loss.
It is painful to read and to know that is the reality that someone woke up to this morning.
If they could sleep at all.
I will pray with you for them …and know that I am praying for you too.
I love what you shared here about purpose, hope and God speaking.
And this;
“Hug your children extra hard tonight. Don’t feel guilty for a good day. Thank Him for it. Rejoice in the fact that He is faithful. That He promises grace. And that He doesn’t break His promises.”
Love you friend. Praying Romans 8:26…for all.
“We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.”
My heart just breaks for this family as this hit so close to home being a mom of two year old twins myself. I could never imagine my life without them. I will be praying for this family. I can’t even imagine… I will hug my children extra today.
So many things you said really hit home with me as this has been a month of grief/loss in my life after losing a friend to breast cancer. Her children were in our youth group, one a junior in high school. It has been a difficult time. But what you said is so true, clinging to God’s Character when all your questions have no answers. Then when you said “When He speaks, it changes things” I am so thankful for the truth of that. I don’t understand and I don’t the answers to all my why questions but I am ever thankful for a God who gets us through such dark times. A speaker at Woman’s Retreat said “Trusting God’s character is so much more important than understanding” I have been clinging to this truth.
Many prayers for the family….
Praying for this family. Such a loss. I know their pain is great and pray that God will be greater still in giving them comfort, strength, grace, and His presence in their need.
Thank you for sharing from your heart. It is so amazing to have a God who hears and speaks to us.